Another year, another wish, another stories.

It's a shame for me to not updating this blog since a million years ago :( many things had happened and it's already another brand new year.

Let us track back to my last post, which was made on March 2010 (hmmm, almost a year ago?). Then, I was stressed because it was unlikely for me to finish my last-assignment and getting graduation that very semester. It was on March.

Thanks the Allah The Greatest, I don't know from where, how, or how come I got the strength, courage and determination to work on that. Miraculously (yep I should put it that way, miraculously), I was able to finished it at the very last timing on early July, had presentation on July 9th, and graduated on August. It was a long, tiring, yet superb journey I'd been through so far in my life. I AM SUPER GRATEFUL, SUPER PROUD OF MYSELF, and super confused at the same time. Just put aside the 'super confused' part, will definitely ruining this first-post-of-2011 :)

After graduation commencement ceremony on August, I was able to had some time-off, enjoying free time and such. On October, i started to have a real job...as an intern lawyer. Work was tiring, yet enriching and really really stuffed you with experiences, knowledge, and network. So far I'm trying to enjoy what i have ^^!

Well, I don't really know what else to say right now. Seems that my mind works better when i write something stressing, gloomy, and depressing, hahahaha. But I will definitely write again soon. hmm, ah! Almost forgot to say something about this year's wish(es). I...definitely want this year to be special, as time flies really really REALLY fast after you reached 20, I really want to wrap up everything this year (though it is quite impossible). But I believe in mind power, I deffffinitely believe in mind power and God. If i have both I'll be fine...and

i have them. Current things that upset me the most are time and this never-ending to-do-and-to-achieve list. I feel like my time is running out and I am insecure that I will be too old when I finally achieved those things. I have regrets, but I don't want to stuck on those regrets. It has been my destiny, for having history like what I had. If I keep regretting, means that I regret God's plans. I want to discovered what I've been curious of at this 20-ish age. I want to treasure and absorb all of it. I wasn't lucky to count on my parents back then, but there's no need to regret it now, right. I still can make it...soon, I'll have it coming to be reality. I have God on my side, with God and myself, it's enough.

Okay then, I'll see you soon. I've been missing this, writing for my blog since a long time ago. It's always hard to start again but it's fine now ^^!

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL. MAY GOD BLESS US WITH SUCCESS, HEALTH! AND PROSPERITY :)

really need some supports and PRAYERS.

HELLO AGAIN,

i'm in the middle of stressing times right now. and i'd like to ask for your prayers X_X
hope that i can be back to productive activities from now on, since i'm working on it too. been praying *mostly* and working to make my graduation come true this semester (ahhh thinking about it just makes me more nervous and want to cryyy). anyways, keep on living your life to the fullest, all. life is just too precious to be unmeaningful :)

well, i know that i've been acted quite a lot lately, but i want to thank my best buddies by this: thank you for asking when i'm not well, i really don't want to let you down. then again, being inadequate or being below expectations is what hurts me the most, and i'm really scared of it. i'll try my best.

bye, hope i can see you again in a completely different atmosphere.. wish me luck guys!

Something big is on its way.

Wow, I'm surprised to how long I haven't updated my blog. I used to tell all my stories here, no matter how random they are :P. Maybe because I have twitter and tumblr too, so I kinda updating them more often. Okay, so now I will write about something.. a bit deep. Kinda saddening but I know we have to realise it sooner or later..

What's being my concern now is the issue of time. Yes, time as in time, the one we passed by everyday and every seconds. I'm feeling that time go passes me too fast recently. Not just recently, it's just now i feel like i'm really old. I realize that there are many times and events which i know i could do it (with a little more effort), but i didn't. And that what makes me miss the past so bad. I'm in my last year in college now, in the last semester to be exact, and i'll be soon graduated. But i'm not feeling i did my best all this time. There are lots and lots of things that i wish i did, but i didn't. And now reality check: i'm 21 going 22! Twenty one years of life that i've waste, i never did something extraordinary, something big, or haven't graduated yet. And recently, i found some place that i know i could expand my knowledge and network, yet i found it in my last time of school. That was my last chance and i really should find something else to do, i still haven't figure out what it is yet (may God help me to find it and enriched me).

I hate myself when i have nothing to do. I hate myself everytime i feel like i'm the most useless person on earth. I look at my left and my right... I even haven't go anywhere outside this country!!! That's really saddening, and it makes me upset. Sometimes i think that i should blame my parents for this, for being the first child when they got no idea what to do to me, so they just put me at home. But really, do i have to point on someone? It might be their fault, they might did the wrong thing, they might late in finding me things, but it's my fault as well for not work harder! Life has never been easy on me, i'm not like other people who gets what they want by giving a bit effort. My efforts should be big, and i never gave my best effort as long as i can remember.. that's one lesson. Now, i must try harder. I must giving all my best effort no matter what. When i reached my first achievement, which was None Jakarta Timur, i was 19 years old. I remember perfectly what i was thinking at the time, "Wow, i'm 19 and can get all of this? I must be very good." That's one mistake! Never think that you are good enough on something, beacause it'd ended up u're sitting around and being satisfy to yourself, doing nothing. Next thing you know you are missing everything and time will just laugh at you. Oh my God, i need inspirations now.. in what i should do, and in what i should earn. First, i will finish my school this July no matter what. I will not forgive myself if i ended up breaking my own promise :'(

Second, by the time i graduated i must already have something to do and to earn. Some achievements! I know that these are too good to be true and really are too high goals, but i need to push myself. Somehow i know that there's something inside me that can do all those things........

even more.

Godspeed, God will help.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Happy Holidays to all of youuu!! I miss my blog so damn much :)

I've been sitting around doing nothing important, other than worked on my assignments and studied not-really-hard-but-i-think-it-was-hard-enough for my 7th semester exams. yes, i'm in my 8th semester now, and still don't know what to write for my final essay :"( if you guys have some spare times please do think and pray for me, because i could really really use some prayers to keep me alive in this last semester. i need to get out of this campus immediately and looking for something else out there :) thanks to your attention and once again HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO EVERYONE!!!!

Check out my Twitter and Tumblr :D

hello everybody!! sorry for not updating this blog in such a loooong time. i've been bored, and sometimes there are alot lot things to write but my words didn't seem to come out. so the best way for updating these days are by Twitter and Tumblr. i posted some silly things i did and when it comes to serious matters i promise to write it down on this blog.

sooo, hereby i present to you guys my dearly beloved Twitter and Tumblr!!

enjoy it guys, and may you have a nice day!

Happy November!! (God, i get anxious!!) :)